OUCH!! is hurt...

I got a huge ulcer on my tongue, is hurt whenever I move my tongue. Thus, I don't have the mood to talk or eat.

Recently, I have rejected lots of my colleagues' "invitation" such as lunch, dinner, karaoke etc etc. In fact, I just said "NO" to Liz for today lunch, most probably I'll say "NO" too for their karaoke session tomorrow. Hopefully, they won't think that I'm anti-social and thus develope hard feeling between us. Honestly, I really don't mean to spoilt our strong relationship, how I wish we can be like the older days.

I'm not in the mood to join all these happy occassions, but I did try my best to enjoy yesterday office party! I guess this is because of the absent of hubby and the assignments loaded by my master degree lecturers. I feel so sorry for my supervisor as my final year project have not much progress. If only God can gives me more than 24hours a day, then I can divide my time equally to everyone!!

Yesterday I sms brother in Macau as I was very down & have noone else to talk to. We exchanged several sms and encouraged each other to be strong for this transition period. He miss us alot, but luckily his girfriend who also got a job in the same hotel as an accountant is flying over later. He told me that although he earn much more in term of money but he has lost all the family love which is priceless!! Both of us shed tears...

House is so quiet without hubby, I no longer have the urge to go home early everyday. I have been thinking a lot lat night, I cried myself to bed... This morning I cleaned our house thoroughly before I left to work, the different was darling is not there to help me anymore...

All the while I thought I'm strong & tough, I'm so ashame of myself for not able to live "normally" once hubby left to Singapore.